My sister invited me to dinner at the Melting Pot because it was Restaurant Week in Pasadena. For $35 dollars you got your choice of a cheese fondue, an entrée fondue and a dessert fondue. It was a deal. Over dinner I broke down and cried over my raw pieces of meat as the pot boiled over. All the stress and anxiety over the past few weeks have caught up and I cannot hold it together any longer. So, I just let it all go right there and then in the middle of the restaurant.
I woke up with a stiffness in my neck and shoulders to the point that it was making it difficult to drive since I had to move my entire body to turn my head. Then my left eye started to see sparkles whenever I walked out from indoors to outdoors, like when I walk from the stairwell to the parking garage’s roof at work. It last only for a few minutes then goes away. I’m slightly concerned that the same thing that happened to my right eye is now happening in my good left eye. If I lose vision in both eyes what am I going to do with myself. I won’t be able to do my job since most of the day is spent answering emails online and doing things on the computer.
I started to read The Lupus Recovery Book by Jill Harrington. All the symptoms she was experiencing I went through myself so I figured that it couldn’t hurt to try her method of healing through foods. The author has been 12 years in remission and she firmly believes it’s her eating. Today I decided to cut out the 4 Whites – sugar, white flour, salt and dairy of my diet. Let’s see how long I last and whether or not it makes a difference. It can’t hurt, right? I’m desperate and I’ll try anything to get better. I tried dropping 10 mg down to 40 of prednisone today. My face feels fuller on this drug, the so-called moon face side effect.